Life is so unpredictable. There are mountains and valleys all along the way. We want to control it, but we can’t. We want to know what is going to happen tomorrow, but do we? We would worry today about what was to come if we knew that. God clearly tells us that He made us to only bear one day at a time. “Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.” Matthew 6:34
I went to see the premier of the movie “Unplanned” on Friday night. It is a story/biography about Abby Johnson, a past Director of a Planned Parenthood office and her journey as God showed her the truth about life. The movie is not for the faint at heart. It is graphic and honest, and it puts the issue of abortion right out there from the opening scene.
The squirming baby in the womb trying to get away from the vacuum suction had me covering my eyes. I couldn’t look. I peeked through my fingers. I had to know. It was overwhelming. It was a rude awakening. It was the truth of what happens to these babies. Our babies. They are not a lump of cells, but real, live, human beings that feel pain. And we suck them apart limb by limb to try and control our lives, to do away with the unplanned.
I sobbed all the way home. The next day, I was so depressed. The weight of the burden on me was so strong. In the movie, as Abby heals from her choices, she too weeps. There is one scene where they have a healing ceremony and they tie flowers to a fence remembering the little ones who were lost. Abby asks the two children that she had terminated to forgive her for taking the gift of life from them. That was the weight I felt on myself also. I had previously asked God to forgive me and I had forgiven myself. But I had never asked the children lost to forgive me. I did that.
During the time where I was bearing the weight of my sin, my thoughts went to the cross and Jesus. What a fitting time to be contemplating about this as Easter approaches. I thought about the weight of the world’s sin bearing down on Jesus as He took all of our sins on Himself for us. I wept again. How did He do that? I cannot fathom it. But I am so grateful! He didn’t want me carrying something He paid such a huge price for. I laid my burden at the cross and He took it. The weight lifted off of me.
Oh, Jesus, how grateful we are to have such a Savior! This Easter, thank your Savior for the great sacrifice He made and continues to make for us. He is eternal. He is yesterday, today and tomorrow. He is enough for any weight you may bear. Don’t carry beyond today. Bring it to the cross!
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